Sweet tooth.

I just spent $15 on junk food.

• Sour gummie worms.
• Chocolate covered raisins.
• Sweet Heat chips.
• Cheez-it s
• Whoopers.
• Charleston Chews.
• Sour Patch Watermelon.
• Beef jerky stick.
• Arizona Tea.
• Arizona Pomegranate Green Tea

The italicized are what I bought for mama and sister.

Question: What's wrong with me?!
Answer: I'm on my freaking period and I need this ishh!
I crave sour gummie worms and chocolate covered raisins everytime I'm on.
The other stuff...well I got too excited and started picking things up.

And Im supposed to be saving money. :\

young&dumb.

I wish someone would have told me this about my virginity...
oh wait, they did.

“I had to lose myself so I could love you better.”

Nashlantis.

Death count now at 9 and 2 people are missing.

It's a shame that no one knows what middle Tennessee and surrounding areas are experiencing.
We are damn near the next New Orleans, when I say my city's underwater, I'm not joking.
The Cumberland River which goes through downtown Nashville has risen 48 ft so far.
It takes 50 ft until 2nd Ave is completely flooded.
Schools are destroyed. Streets ripped apart. Our water system is cut off.
Our best mall is freakin flooded.

:(

(Last Flood post. I think.)

Some people still floatin'.

The death count is at 8 now.

Pictures via I survived the Great Nashville Monsoon of May 1st.

Today is May 1st.

The month I graduate.

Goodnight.

bite my tongue.

I'm not positive what exactly is going on with my relationship but it's causing me to cry at just the thought of us. For the past week there has been tension between to two of us over something that I've tried to avoid but obviously couldn't. He feels like I don't think about him in my actions or thoughts while he says everything he does he thinks about me. I asked him if that was true and he said yes. I don't believe it.

He's done quite a few things that had hurt my feelings and made me sick that I haven't confronted him about because I would rather avoid confrontations. I bite my tongue too often with him therefore he doesn't know how I feel about the things he does that irritate me. Just like he accused me of not thinking of him when the truth really is I do -- I always think of him!-- possibly it's the same around. Neither one of us really know we're hurting the other, the only difference is he confronts me and I'm the bad guy once again.

So instead of talking through this, I've been ignored. Rarely a phone call or text.
& to make matters worse, apparently he doesn't love me when we argue.
The only "Love you." I've gotten all week was the one right after I told him.

If you loved me you would tell me no matter what.
If you loved me you wouldn't wait for me to call just because I said I would.
If you loved me you wouldn't tell me just because I told you.

Great. Just fcking great.

Tears...

Happy Birthday love.

Noah Ewekunle.
Gone but never ever ever ever ever forgotten.
R.I.P. baby boy!
I love you!

RE: Form$pring.

do you think black people are in a good status quo in america or is there more to do?

Ha! Thanks for being more specific. ;)

& to be completely honest no, i dont think we're in a good status quo and I don't think we quite yet deserved to be. Yes we've come along way but I think this generation is messing it up. White people look at us the same way we look at them. When we see them do something it's always "Only white people cut up dead bodies and put them in the freezer." or "Look at how that white person dresses." Well when we are shooting people or sagging and talking ignorantly they are thinking the same thing, "Only black people do that, only black people talk like that and dress like that."

I feel like black people will always want to play the victim. Get mad when someone thinks about them a certain way but look at how you're acting. I feel this goes the same for white people the only difference is we're working our way up. If we're already down we have to act like we have some sense 100% of the time. White people came from on top so they have a little room to slack.

I hope this makes sense.
I don't know how to type my thoughts into words.
If you know me personally I would love to talk to you in person or on the phone. haha.
If not um...I hope this answered your question.

Bottom line; We need to do better.

Form$pring.

"how do you feel about black people?"
Are they serious??
My response:
Lol. I'm not sure I understand this question seeing is how I'm black myself...
I not racist against my own race nor am I all "Power to the people! Black Pride! Stay strong my beautiful black sistas and brothas!"

How else would I respond.
I'm a little bewildered here.

My whole city's underwater.

...well at least Antioch, TN is.
It started raining at about 4am this morning and is has not stopped.

The water ripped up the street.

All photos are from the facebook page I survived the Great Nashville Monsoon of May 1st.

One life was lost.
People's homes and cars are underwater.
People are deserted at the gym, work, movies...
School portables are floating down the highway.

This is a mess.
I'VE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING LIKE THIS IN NASHVILLE
& it is terrifying.
Pray for us yall.