I don't feel like I'm making a difference in the world and that pains me the most at this moment of my life. 

I hope this little guy lives long enough to feel the earth move around the sun. I hope I can at least give him what he needs.
I'm finally going to stop lying to myself.

I do desire to be in a relationship.
I would like to get married before 25.
       Which I don't feel like will happen.
             I'm 86% sure of that.
And I want a beautiful ceremony.

I don't feel adequate.
I don't have any money.
And there's absolutely no one I'm interested in.


I hope my succulent cheers you up, like it does for me. Bye.