& cut your hair.
"I'm weird cause I hate goodbyes...
...I got misty eyed as he said farewell."
Strangest thing just happened. My eyes really did start to tear up. I don't think it's ever been that hard for me to say 'goodnight'. I really didn't wanna leave. I felt like there was so much more to say or I guess since we haven't and won't be seeing much of each other I just needed to hear his voice. It gets so hard sometimes all the time. I tell myself that I can do it and I don't wanna say that I've been lying to myself but....I really do wonder. It sucks ass honestly. Excuse my language. kgdlskay4o87tliushGHZLglczughh. Thats how I feel. I'm determined to make this work tho. I can't, I won't, let him go.
Bae I know you're gonna read this:
I love you with all my heart, body, soul. Haha. Don't mean to get deep or nothing but that's how I feel. And really I can't even come close to telling you just how much. I'm happy. The happiest I've been in a long long long time and I would like to think that you are a reason why, because I know you are. I love making you laugh and smile. I love knowing that I always have a supporter [on some things. haha. you know what I'm talking about]. I love how you move my hair from my face. I love when you kiss me on the forehead when I'm 'sleeping'. Haha. I love and appreciate how you take road trips to and from my house. I love how you put up with me even when I act like a 5 year old. I love how we look into each others eyes and rub noses. teehee. Your family, your smile, your eyes, your blonde hair. lol. I love you, every part. Most of all I love your heart. I thank God for you. I love you. ♥
Taste so sweet.
Today I had a buncha oranges for lunch. That's all I ever really want these days.
And as I'm typing this there's a ladybug walking around on the window. They mean good luck, ya know? Gahh dang, today's been a great day.
[ Read 'What is love?' to understand. :D ]
And as I'm typing this there's a ladybug walking around on the window. They mean good luck, ya know? Gahh dang, today's been a great day.
[ Read 'What is love?' to understand. :D ]
Becky.
I just realized how attractive Plies really is. I just wish he didn't talk like an ignoramus nor had 'yellow' teeth.
Btw- the 'Becky's' in the video were--
I really need a life.
Btw- the 'Becky's' in the video were--
I really need a life.
That's so random: "Return of the Randomizer"
6:17 am.
I like lists.
- Ok so I was getting on the city bus today and as I'm walking to the back this girls' backpack strap falls into the aisle. Not only is it slick because of the morning dew but I just so happen to be the most clumsy person...ever! So I'm walking along and my foot decides it wants to get caught up. To make a short story shorter, I trip in front of the whhoolleee bus. I nearly died, everyone died laughing, I died laughing and thank goodness I dont get embarrassed too often or I would have died of embarrassment. So thats how I started my day. :)Lesson to learn: backpack straps are dangerous!
I like lists.
- Being from the south there's lots of hospitality. People speak to one another on the street, I don't. If I pass someone I don't speak or say "Goodmorning" or what not. Not because I'm being rude or anything but I just don't like to talk to strangers. Especially the ones that look like creepers. I feel like if I talk back then they'll think it's an invitation to...I dont know....talk more?? But if someone passes and speaks to me I just nod and smile politely. :)
- Mi familia y yo son abejas.
- As I was walking to school I noticed that the Batman building disappeared.
- Tomorrow's Halloweve, I have to work. Saturday's Halloween, I still have to work. I think I'm going to dress up like Rihanna for school since I obviously have no life. I have red lipstick too homie.
- I thought today was Friday for the longest, I still feel that way.
- I murdered that econ test. You should be proud.
- For dinner last night I had a 10 piece McNugget from Mickey D's as well as Apple Dippers and a large blue drink of some sort. I haven't felt so satisfied like that in awhile. Usually I hate fast food. Especially since I dont eat pork or beef [preference not religion] and thats all fast food is. The only thing's I order are chicken sandwiches or nuggets.
- I'm tired of having this argument:
Me: "I don't like chocolate or peanut butter and I despise them together."
Them: "What is wrong with you!? How can you not like those two?!?!" - I'm highly upset that Homecoming's in January this year...again. ugghh.
- I'm getting tired of my own random thoughts. lol. byeee.
"I'm here to please myself."
Everything
can fall apart right before your eyes and sometimes you have no choice but to let it crash and burn.
Not all who wander are lost.
During classes I like to ask to go to the restroom, whether I have to relieve or not. I'd stroll to where ever my feet take me. Usually I do go to the restroom but mostly just to read the stall walls and look at the doodles and what not. When I walk out the stall I may go towards the sink and stop to look at myself. That's all. Just look. I guess I critique myself on my flat hair, on 'why in the world I wore this outft', the fat hanging off the sides. I'd take of my Lacoste glasses and squint really hard at myself, getting closer and closer to the mirror. Up down up down. Funny faces. More squints. A few minutes I hear footsteps and slide them back on my face. The young girl walked in and we exchange smiles. I walk away.
In the all my mind starts to wander just as I do. I wish to be the only one in the huge halls but at the same time hope to see a familiar face. No words needs to be exchanged, just a smile. That's all I ask. As I continue to make my way across, what feels like miles and miles of nothing, I stop and squeak floor boards, read comics and letters on peers' lockers, even look closely at the pictures of the school in various places; the gym (that can only hold a handful), hallways, classrooms, etc.I think about what the school was like 50 years ago, what Nashville was like, what will I be like 50 years from now. I walk over to the blue recycling bins used to catch the dripping. There's dripping everywhere. It won't stop raining. I believe that's the reason why the ancient hardwood floors creak and rise. Or the face that it's so old. I lean my head over and watch the dripping, the ripples, my reflection. Nothing more. People pass and I get closer to the wall, away from the blue recycling buckets full of life.
I become parallel with the windowsill and Coke machine that only sells diet drinks, which is fine with me since I don't even drink such things as soda. I sit on the sill and look at the clouds. That's all. Just look. It takes me awhile to snap back to reality and realize I've been gone for nearly 10 minutes. I rush past the lockers and blue tubs as my five dollar Steve Maddens' from Goodwill click with every step and my Kathy Van Zeeland Bag jingles like windchimes creating a rhythmic melody. I quickly smooth out my flat hair and fix myself before reaching the door. I stop. Take a deep breath. And walk in.
This Is It.
Fall break.
...is officially over.
It went by entirely too fast for my liking. I'm in the school's library now, realizing that I'm back to reality, somewhere I don't care to be. I wanna stay lost in my imagination. It's funny how I dread being in here yet just about everyday freshman and sophomore year I pretty much lived in the library. I would come just to look at the books, look up new things on the computer, and even check out about 4 or 5 books at a time. I love to read and miss it. It's different when you're told to read something but when you choose your own book to read, whether you judge the book by the picture on the cover or the title or whatever it is, it's something you want to do, for your own enjoyment. No one wants to read a book they're forced to read then write an impossible paper about it-- But to be completely honest, now that I'm complaining about it, I've read some of the best books by being forced. I guess we all should just be open about things and keep a positive mind. But still, it's just not the same.
The "best books" I've read include Paradise Lost by John Milton. One of my favorite quotes comes from this great work of art:
"The mind is its own place and in itself
Can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven."
And many many many more. Seriously though. Reading is amazing. You can put yourself in a whole new life. If you get into books like I do [and I realllyyy get into them] you can feel what they feel, see what they see just as they see it. You come alive in the text and if a book doesn't do that then it was poorly written and I'm sorry you even picked it up. Very few books have left me feeling that way and I miss that feeling. hmmm.....while I'm in here I think I just might pick something up.
Ta Ta.
Have a nice day loves. ; )
frustration.
i want to hold you, touch you, feel you,
i wish to talk to you, hear your voice,
i need to see your face, your smile,
kiss your lips, hold your hand.
right now.
im happy but not satisfied.
i wish to talk to you, hear your voice,
i need to see your face, your smile,
kiss your lips, hold your hand.
right now.
im happy but not satisfied.
Fierce.
So the best frann got her lip pierced and I'm über jealous, not only because my other friend who just turned 18 got her belly button pierced, but because I'm so f'n ready to get mine it's ridiculous. All I want is my tragus and neck [ew. I know, whatever.] But see I don't turn 18 until Junneee. Gah, this is lame. But whatever, I'm happy for them. See --> C:
Today's trash day btw & when I get the kitchen trash bag to take it outside I see that the one outside has reached maximum capacity and was spilling over. I refused to let that trash sit for another week. So I did what I had to do:
That's right, like Lucy in the Vineyard! lol.
I know yall remember that episode.
If not here you go. haha.
It's better if you watch the whole thing.
Oh, I reallyy love Lucy.
I hope this puts a lil happiness in your day.
It sure did for me.
Ta Ta, loves. ♥
Today's trash day btw & when I get the kitchen trash bag to take it outside I see that the one outside has reached maximum capacity and was spilling over. I refused to let that trash sit for another week. So I did what I had to do:
That's right, like Lucy in the Vineyard! lol.
I know yall remember that episode.
If not here you go. haha.
It's better if you watch the whole thing.
Oh, I reallyy love Lucy.
I hope this puts
It sure did for me.
Ta Ta, loves. ♥
Cuppy cake.
Ok, so I just thought of something, well I'm always thinking but I love this.
One day me and mama was in the car and I was eating a cuppy cake. I was taking my sweet time, eating the sprinkles, licking the icing, peeling the wrapper, so on & so on. Let's just say I was catering to it like it was the best cupcake in the world! Haha. So when I'm finally done mama turn & looks at me & says,
"I'm so glad you done with that cupcake, I wanted to thump it out the window so bad! But I knew you was gonna have a fit!"
I just look at her, because reality is, I would have. (:
Don't mess with me and my food, ya hear meh??
I think this is the last post for the day. Possibly.
Ta Ta.
One day me and mama was in the car and I was eating a cuppy cake. I was taking my sweet time, eating the sprinkles, licking the icing, peeling the wrapper, so on & so on. Let's just say I was catering to it like it was the best cupcake in the world! Haha. So when I'm finally done mama turn & looks at me & says,
"I'm so glad you done with that cupcake, I wanted to thump it out the window so bad! But I knew you was gonna have a fit!"
I just look at her, because reality is, I would have. (:
Don't mess with me and my food, ya hear meh??
I think this is the last post for the day. Possibly.
Ta Ta.
JD.
He's more than a man;
& this is more than
l o v e;
The reason that the sky is blue.
& this is more than
l o v e;
The reason that the sky is blue.
822♥9.
-i love you.
l o v e.
"I believe a strong woman may be stronger than a man, particularly if she happens to have love in her heart. I guess a loving woman is indestructible. -John Steinbeck"
Couldn't have said it better myself.
You've got to be kiddin' me.
Cell phone why must you break now?? You know this is a fragile point in my life with the moolahh, dinero, $$$. I mention my happiness and you quit on me. you really s u c k.
"Why do people hate you?"
Fourth-grader Tyren Scott: "Why do people hate you? And why aren't they supposed to love you if God is love?"
Obama's response: "First of all, I did get elected president, so not everybody hates me; I got a whole lot of votes," Obama joked. "A lot of it is what's called politics, where once one party wins, the other party feels like they've got to poke you a little bit to keep you on your toes. So you shouldn't take it too seriously. But people are worried about their own lives. A lot of people are losing their jobs right now. They're losing their health care or they lost their homes to foreclosure and they're feeling frustrated, and when you're president of the United States, you've got to deal with all of it. You get some of the credit when things are going good, but when things are going bad, you get some of the blame."
Rated R
She's back.
It's about damnnn time.
It's about damnnn time.
Single Russian Roulette dropped
[10.20.09]
Album Rated R drops
[11.23.09]
happinesss. (:
I'm finally at a point in my life where I'm...happy. genuine happiness. & it feels so good. i gave myself room to grow.
What is love?
No seriously, wanna know what being in love feels like? I'm telling you, eat an orange and describe to me vividly how it tastes. Try to tell me how a cool breeze smells, how it feels, what it looks like. I dare you.
"To describe love is very difficult, for the same reason that words cannot fully describe the flavor of an orange. You have to taste the fruit to know its flavor. So with love."
"To describe love is very difficult, for the same reason that words cannot fully describe the flavor of an orange. You have to taste the fruit to know its flavor. So with love."
-Paramahansa Yogananda
The Cool Kids
" Kick it in the city when we in around town . Next door neighbors tellin us that it's too loud . Now neiqhbor, can you please just turn that mess down ? this is the sound of throwin pennies on the qround ."
It may not mean nothing to yall.
I've been blogging like crazzyyy a lot lately but there's so much on my mind. Here it goes:
- Why can't life be easier? Blah blah. Cliche question I know.
- Get off Miley Cyrus! She doin' the damn thing if you ask me.
- Highy antisipated album: Rihanna. Girl I'm dying over here. [11.23.09.] Listen to new single here.
- Speaking of Ri Ri, soon to be my next hairstyle. Cojack. Or RiJack has Tyra would call it.
- Yay: Wendy Williams. Nay: Mo'Nique.
- I wish it would freakkin' stop raining. I'm. Going. Out. Of. My. Mind.
- Wanna know what love feels like? Eat an orange and describe to me how it tastes.
- GET A LIFE YOU LAMMME. kthnx.
- hmm...I needa pea coat, and boots, and thermals. This winters gonna be crucial I reckin'.
- oh graduation...
- Have you seen Kimora Lee's baby boy? I have.
- This really is a problem. (:
"I get high off you bby.."
fallen.
I think that possibly
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yes There's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you
I've seen the waters that make your eyes shine
Now I'm shining too
Because Oh Because
I've fallen quite hard over you
If I didn't know you I'd rather not know
If I couldn't have you I'd rather be alone.
Maybe I'm falling for you
Yes There's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you
I've seen the waters that make your eyes shine
Now I'm shining too
Because Oh Because
I've fallen quite hard over you
If I didn't know you I'd rather not know
If I couldn't have you I'd rather be alone.
...hard.
Dear Tennessee Titians,
I've been a dedicated fan of yours for who knows how long and I'm terribly upset with you right now. Last years season you were undefeated for 10 straight games and had a great season [until the playoffs] but still. I expected so much more from you this season. Some blame it on Jeff and feel like Vince Young should be put in more, others just think your luck has ran out, or possibly the fact that you stomped on a Terrible Towel your now cursed. Either way, get your act together! I'm still a fan as of now but next year I'm not giving you the benifit of the doubtt. I will be gone like the rest of your ex-fans. The few of us that are left wish you the best of luck.
P.S.- Some want you gone completely, as in out of the state. To relocate....
Forever, Lokei
A disappointed fan
A disappointed fan
P.S.- Some want you gone completely, as in out of the state. To relocate....
Cup O'JOE.
Note to self:
Coffee can always ease the mind, warm the body, & heal the soul.
Forever, Lokei
Forever, Lokei
home sweet home.
Oh how I love that phrase.
Now I remember why I don't go to Atlanta very often.
The highway system is RIDICULOUS.
I love busy cities, Miami is my favorite place in the world.
But it seems to me MIA has it more together than the A.
I really don't see what the hype is all about.
Now I remember why I don't go to Atlanta very often.
The highway system is RIDICULOUS.
I love busy cities, Miami is my favorite place in the world.
But it seems to me MIA has it more together than the A.
I really don't see what the hype is all about.
This is MY CITY.
Nashville, Tennessee.
Nashville, Tennessee.
AND FOR THE RECORD I'M NOT A HATER.
THAT'S WHY ITS CALLED AN OPINION RIGHT?
Forever, Lokei
THAT'S WHY ITS CALLED AN OPINION RIGHT?
Forever, Lokei
HOTlanta
Here I Come.
"Welcome to Atlanta where the playas play
& we ride in them things like everyday.
Big beats, hit streets, see gangsta's roamin'
And parties don't stop til' eight in the mornin'..."
"Welcome to Atlanta where the playas play
& we ride in them things like everyday.
Big beats, hit streets, see gangsta's roamin'
And parties don't stop til' eight in the mornin'..."
life's a joke.
live your own life please.
don't worry about others'.
drama, rumors, gossip
cut it.
stereotypes
cut it.
violence
peoples lives aren't a f'n gamble.
cut it.
stress
cut it.
just be happy.
it really isn't that hard.
just try...please??
don't worry about others'.
drama, rumors, gossip
cut it.
stereotypes
cut it.
violence
peoples lives aren't a f'n gamble.
cut it.
stress
cut it.
just be happy.
it really isn't that hard.
just try...please??
Forever, Lokei
In a split second
*****WARNING*****
This Is About To Get Real Raw
In a split second my whole life could have changed. Last Saturday Jalen and I went to the movies. Usually it's its all good since I work there and all. But our night took an unexpected turn. We were in the car chillin' and talking and such and I hear a knock on the window behind me. I instantly see Jalens face and it looked as though his heart fell into his stomach. All emotion was gone. I turned to take a look and the only thing I can see is the barrel of a pistol pointing straight at me, no more than 6 inches away. First thought, "We're going to die." Second thought, "What if something happens to me?" Final thought, "What if something happens to him?"
Jalen starts to look for something around the car and I'm beyond freaking out. We then hear "Get out of the car" in a nonthreatening voice but the only voice I'm hearing is the guns. Jalen gets out of the car and the guy walks around to his side with the gun pointing straight at him and says "Give me your money." Jalen does. "Is that all you got?" "Yeah." He runs off and joins two others. I shake uncontrollably and cry.
We call the police and my co-worker comes out and asks us what was up with the cops. We tell him what happened and he says that he knows who the kid was. He and his friends went to a movie that night and they might be on camera. A few minutes later about 2 more cop cars and 2 unmarked cop cars come and question us. One goes inside for the footage. Sure enough we find him on tape.
Please, if he looks familiar let me know via blogspot, facebook [name: Shelby Danielle], or email [shelby.corley@yahoo.com]
I will let the detective know any information you may have.
This is really important to me.
Thank God he didn't pull the trigger this time,
but the next person may not be so lucky.
My life could have changed in a split second.
You think you know but you have no idea.
That day was exactly a year after I had been raped
and now there was a gun to my head.
I always hated October...
I dread what next year brings.
In a split second my life did change.
This Is About To Get Real Raw
Date: Saturday, October 10, 2009.
Time: 11.25 pm.
Place: Bell Forge 10 Parking Lot, Antioch.
Time: 11.25 pm.
Place: Bell Forge 10 Parking Lot, Antioch.
In a split second my whole life could have changed. Last Saturday Jalen and I went to the movies. Usually it's its all good since I work there and all. But our night took an unexpected turn. We were in the car chillin' and talking and such and I hear a knock on the window behind me. I instantly see Jalens face and it looked as though his heart fell into his stomach. All emotion was gone. I turned to take a look and the only thing I can see is the barrel of a pistol pointing straight at me, no more than 6 inches away. First thought, "We're going to die." Second thought, "What if something happens to me?" Final thought, "What if something happens to him?"
Jalen starts to look for something around the car and I'm beyond freaking out. We then hear "Get out of the car" in a nonthreatening voice but the only voice I'm hearing is the guns. Jalen gets out of the car and the guy walks around to his side with the gun pointing straight at him and says "Give me your money." Jalen does. "Is that all you got?" "Yeah." He runs off and joins two others. I shake uncontrollably and cry.
We call the police and my co-worker comes out and asks us what was up with the cops. We tell him what happened and he says that he knows who the kid was. He and his friends went to a movie that night and they might be on camera. A few minutes later about 2 more cop cars and 2 unmarked cop cars come and question us. One goes inside for the footage. Sure enough we find him on tape.
Black Male.
Age, 15-17.
About 5'9, 5'10.
He was wearing a red polo and a red backwards cap.
Black jacket.
Age, 15-17.
About 5'9, 5'10.
He was wearing a red polo and a red backwards cap.
Black jacket.
He might've had hair [dreads, braids, or ponytail.]
He was last seen running towards Bell Rd.
He was last seen running towards Bell Rd.
I will let the detective know any information you may have.
This is really important to me.
Thank God he didn't pull the trigger this time,
but the next person may not be so lucky.
My life could have changed in a split second.
You think you know but you have no idea.
That day was exactly a year after I had been raped
and now there was a gun to my head.
I always hated October...
I dread what next year brings.
In a split second my life did change.
“Set your goals high, and don't stop till you get there.” -Bo Jackson
Finish all of the art pieces I've ever started. [about 10]
Overcome my fear of public relations and take acting classes.
Call my dad just to say "Hi".
Join ANY organization in college.
Photoshoot.
Learn how to play the piano.
Go camping and look at the stars all night.
Vacation in Australia.
Mission Volunteer work in Middle America.
Win Homecoming/Prom Queen.
Learn how to ice skate.
Meet Barack Obama.
Pet a Zebra.
Make new friends/keep old ones.
Become closer to God.
blogging 101.
I went to pick up October's issue of NYLONmag and I came across the 'it girls'. Who the girls were and what made them it. The list includes: Rosie Huntington-Whiteley, Anita Blay a.k.a. Thecocknbullkid, Paloma Faith, Lily Collins, Jameela Jamil, Kate Moross, Janelle Monae, Vashtie Kola.
But the one I would like to make note of is Alexi Wasser.
I started reading about her and became even more interested when I saw that she too blogs. The first thing i did when I got home was check it out; imboycrazy.com . Not only did I fall in love with the title of her blog, seeing as how im incredibly boy crazy myself, but I just fell in love with...well EVERYTHING. I'm new to this whole blogging thing. At times I ask myself "Should I really write about that?" or "Just how personal should I get?" I found out all of these answers and more once I read post after wonderful post from Alexi. She said in the magizine "I thought, If everybody else has a blog, why can't I? Except mine had to be as honest, raw, and personal as possible." And I just love the idea of having a place but put ANYTHING YOU want. This is something that is completly your own, why not share your deepest darkest thoughts?
Not only does she get personal but she also shows her humorous side. This girl really knows how to blog...
boycrazy gets a job: from alexi wasser on Vimeo.
Her blog description?
"A pep talk in the form of a slap in the face in the form of a blog."
Post Secret [1]
Se.cret- (adj) Something kept hidden from others or known only to oneself.
We all have one.
We all have one.
fear.
"And I been getting high to balance out the l o w s.
And I could use a writer to balance my flows.
But I never share my thoughts,
This is all a nigga knows."
And I could use a writer to balance my flows.
But I never share my thoughts,
This is all a nigga knows."
"Dont believe the lies.
Look me in my eyes.
Please dont be scared of me.
Please dont be scared of me.
I remember you.
This feeling isnt new.
So please dont be scared of me.
Please dont be scared of me."
-Drake
Look me in my eyes.
Please dont be scared of me.
Please dont be scared of me.
I remember you.
This feeling isnt new.
So please dont be scared of me.
Please dont be scared of me."
-Drake
Forever,
Lokei
Lokei
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