Must be gung ho. ;)
lost one.
I haven't been the one to pay much attention to my followers but I do notice when the number goes up. When I finally see the new follower I wonder what made them follow me. I soon forget until I receive a new one. A few weeks ago I noticed that I lost a follower. The way I felt was so ridiculous that I soon got over it.
This morning I noticed that I gained a follower and a few minutes ago I learned I had gained one more; yet, the number didn't change. While I gained one, I lost one. What makes someone want to unfollow me? Am I too somber, Am I not what they expected? Either way, I'm not unhappy over the whole ordeal, it just makes me wonder.
Ahh well, their lost. :)
This morning I noticed that I gained a follower and a few minutes ago I learned I had gained one more; yet, the number didn't change. While I gained one, I lost one. What makes someone want to unfollow me? Am I too somber, Am I not what they expected? Either way, I'm not unhappy over the whole ordeal, it just makes me wonder.
Ahh well, their lost. :)
The Cool Kids.
Omg. Omg. Omg.
Everyone who knows me knows I loooovvvveeee them.
I cried when they came to Nashville because I wasn't 18 and couldn't go to their show.
Anywho, They have a new album called "When fish ride bicycles" and of course I can't go to the debut performance because it's on the west coast. Blah blah. I'll meet them one day. :)
"Gone fishing" was the last mixed tape btw. I just think this pic is flyy.
freshman15.
During lunch he's always looking at me & eager to say Hi.
Making sure other freshmen move out of my way.
Today he made this his default picture on fb. :)
He's such a cutie.
form$pring.
you think it's hard to accept your life the way it is?you ever feel like it gets too heavy to handle?
Oh it's most certainly hard for me to accept my life. I resent it honestly. I don't mean to sound like I'm complaining but I'm not sure of the last time I was actually satisfied with my life and the way things were going. I don't look forward to getting up in the morning... Hopefully things will start to look up. The way I see it, things can only get better from now.
Come on get higher.
"I miss the sound of your voice.
And I miss the rush of your skin.
And I miss the still of the silence,
as you breathe out and I breathe in."
Welcome to the world Jonathan Raider Aquino.
I've been waiting for you for some time now. I remember when you were just a baby bump in your mommy's belly. Seems like yesterday the news of your presence was near. These past nine months have been the best (and fastest) nine months watching your grow and kick mommy causing her to go to the restroom every five minutes at work. I just want you to know you are in good hands. Rachel is going to be the best mother there is and you're certainly lucky to have her. And your daddy Raider. They love you so much. Just like I do. You are loved by so many.
I got the news that you arrived at 2:01 am. It was if I had been waiting all night. As soon as I opened my eyes, the phone rang. When I saw your picture, I cried. You are so beautiful. So big. So healthy. Your mommy is so strong. People look down at teen mothers but she's an outlier. She beats the odds. She's going to do more for you than most mothers and do for theirs. Always remember, that you are loved.
I love you.
I got the news that you arrived at 2:01 am. It was if I had been waiting all night. As soon as I opened my eyes, the phone rang. When I saw your picture, I cried. You are so beautiful. So big. So healthy. Your mommy is so strong. People look down at teen mothers but she's an outlier. She beats the odds. She's going to do more for you than most mothers and do for theirs. Always remember, that you are loved.
I love you.
Su tía,
Shelby. xox♥
I believe life is getting the best of me.
Yet I feel my absolute worst. I just want to close my eyes forever.
arcanum.
This one guy said that he really liked my blog.
I told him how it started & how it isn't as personal as I would like.
The reason being, I didn't expect so many followers.
But once I gained them, I accepted them & decided not to make it private.
He then told me he wanted to know the real me.
I told him my blog was the real me just not as deep.
He said..."Well that's the Shelby I want to know."
I don't think the world's ready for that.
6 months.
This was back in October.
Sadly I don't have any pictures of us recently.
Well I do from January but I'm not too pleased with them. :)
& the second pic...be jealous of my face. >_<
Psalm 102:1-12.
A prayer of the afflicted, when he is overwhelmed, and poureth out his complaint before the LORD.
- 1Hear my prayer, O LORD, and let my cry come unto thee. 2Hide
not thy face from me in the day when I am in trouble; incline thine ear
unto me: in the day when I call answer me speedily.
3For my days are consumed like smoke, and my bones are burned as an hearth.
4My heart is smitten, and withered like grass; so that I forget to eat my bread.
5By reason of the voice of my groaning my bones cleave to my skin.
6I am like a pelican of the wilderness: I am like an owl of the desert.
7I watch, and am as a sparrow alone upon the house top.
8Mine enemies reproach me all the day; and they that are mad against me are sworn against me.
9For I have eaten ashes like bread, and mingled my drink with weeping.
10Because of thine indignation and thy wrath: for thou hast lifted me up, and cast me down.
11My days are like a shadow that declineth; and I am withered like grass.
12But thou, O LORD, shall endure for ever; and thy remembrance unto all generations.
that's it. im packing my things and moving out.
...as soon as I get a car.
Then I'll live in it.
Note to self:
Remember not to shout "IM RUNNING AWAY!" like the lil white kids in the movies.
Can't let the madre in on my secret plan.
Shhh...
the booski.
"I love my baby yep yep I love my boy."
The night kinda started out rough
The night kinda started out rough
then the middle took some turns,
but overall I'm my happiest when I'm with him.
I hate to see him leave. :(
But here's to a good night overall.
Yayyy! :) haha.
I saw an angel.
She was short with fresh Nikes on, wearing all black, skinny jeans, leather jacket. But her style isn't what caught my eye. It was her hair. Her cute perfect braid-out that obviously had lasted all day without any problems seeing as how it was 3:15 in the afternoon. I first spotted her from across the busy downtown cross walk. I couldn't help but look. As we were about to cross each others paths, I just had so say something.
"I love your hair."
I wanted her hair, her beautiful natural hair. The hair I've been so eager to grow and love. I spend most of my time downtown and not once have a seen a beautiful black woman with beautiful natural hair. I always see the weaves, wigs, & relaxers, pink, blue & purple, flat ironed, bone straight. I was in awe and amazement that here this young woman is with an "afro" and she looks just as beautiful, if not more, than these other girls. She was the one who caught my eye and that's how I want to be. The only one in the room that catches your eye.
I wanted her hair, her beautiful natural hair. The hair I've been so eager to grow and love. I spend most of my time downtown and not once have a seen a beautiful black woman with beautiful natural hair. I always see the weaves, wigs, & relaxers, pink, blue & purple, flat ironed, bone straight. I was in awe and amazement that here this young woman is with an "afro" and she looks just as beautiful, if not more, than these other girls. She was the one who caught my eye and that's how I want to be. The only one in the room that catches your eye.
I saw my angel.
meet granny.
& the other guy I'm supposed to call "granddaddy."
November 1972.
My granny is the bestest.
She doesn't bake cookies or casseroles or cakes. Heck, she doesn't even cook. Well she used to bake banana nut bread. Yumm. I'm not sure if she still does. Hmm... I'll check on that. But help yourself to all the popsicles in the freezer and Kool Aid in the fridge. She doesn't knit or sew or crochet. But why should she? She plays electronic poker all day and watches reruns of Murder She Wrote and Bones, she has them on DVD. She only goes two places; the grocery store and church, both of which are 3 minutes away. She's a beast on the rode. I don't think she believes in the brake pedal...only to park. When I visit, I'm her girlfriend not her granddaughter any longer or "punkin" or "poocumroo", well I think the latter my mama calls me. Anywho. My granny is as real as it gets.
It's life.
It kills me when people think it's nasty to look at the tissue after blowing your nose or wiping your behind. Now you can't tell me you don't do that because I sure do. It's not nasty!
body! Don't be a pussy. Look at that tissue! Look at that turd! It's human nature! There's nothing wrong with it. Also, after you drop a freakin' load and you wipe only once, you probably walking around with crap in your undies. Use common sense, look as many times as you need to make sure you're clean!
Bigger than my body.
"Maybe, I'll tangle in the power lines
And it might be over in a seconds time
But I'll gladly go down in a flame if a flames what it takes to remember my name."
-John Mayer
Seriously, why do some things speak to me, they know me so well.
ghet·to (n)
The term ghetto is a place Jews were forced to live by law in the Middle Ages. During the Holocaust. the Nazis revived the ghettos for Jews and Romani to stay until they were shipped to concentration camps. The ghettos were slums or crowed rundown "towns" or areas. As you can see the term ghetto is a place.
I would like to take note on how the word is used now:
The ignorance to the word actually irritates me now, don't get me wrong, I too am a victim of misusing the word. People or things cannot be places. It's funny how people try to make others feel low, as if they're inadequate yet their bliss is in ignorance.
I would like to take note on how the word is used now:
- "Look how she talks, you know she ghetto."
- "Those earrings are so ghetto."
The ignorance to the word actually irritates me now, don't get me wrong, I too am a victim of misusing the word. People or things cannot be places. It's funny how people try to make others feel low, as if they're inadequate yet their bliss is in ignorance.
gimmie gimmie gimmie.
Well, all of the ones without chocolate at least because I HATE chocolate! ughh.
I really want the hot pink ones. ;)
form$pring.
Are you gay, of bisexual? Just curious
Definitely not. I have a boyfriend. I've never dated a female, kissed a female, any of that, nor do I plan to. I don't "believe" in that.Just as you're curious, I'm curious as to why you would think that...
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Seriously?? Do I come across as a lesbian or bisexual??
I honestly don't know how to feel about this.
I'M STRAIGHTTT!
I LIKKEE BOYSS!
:(
RE: Rude boy.
When
I first watched the video, I only watched the first minute or so because I was so
disgusted, for the lack of better terms, BUT I re-watched it a few
times and it has certainly grown on me. Yeah ok whatever. So what she
was "uncreative" or what not but moving on...
As
I watched I noticed the black and white room she was in with the zebra
and I knew right off the bat where that idea came from. I was like
"REWIND!"
She
had gotten the idea from a photograph titled "Keith Haring, New York
City, 1986" by photographer Annie Leibovitz. Leibovitz is well known
for her contemporary photographs.
I only know this because I am an artist and my love for art is like whoaa! :)
Ta Ta loves! ♥
Finale!
The ArchAndroid
New single! New album!!
Finale!
Speaking of finale:
Sade where you been at!!?
Rude boy.
Honestly, I HATE THIS VIDEO!!
It's freakin' terrible!
BUT I LOVE THIS SONG!
The video does the song no justice whatsoever.
It's so sad. :(
Her slow wine was good though.
WERK BISHH!
ooh boy!
"Graze on my lips;
and if those hills be dry,
stray lower,
where the pleasant fountains lie."
-William Shakespeare
form$pring.
What is the hardest thing you've ever been through? And what did you learn from it?
I would have to say the year 3 friends died, I didn't know how to cope with the pain. I started drinking and not really caring about anything. Drinking kinda numbed the pain i guess. Well it got to the point were it was waayy out of control. I would love to say more but I can't bring myself to.Basically, hardest thing was dealing with the deaths.
I learned what NOT to do in situations like that.
That there are other options & drinking isn't one of them.
It aint worth it.
I havent drank since october 08. :)
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