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The bold would be the story of my life...
RE: GIRLS, you know what I'm talking about.
"I hate how I get so worked up when you don’t respond. A bajillion questions come into my head like, “Did I do something wrong? Does he not wanna talk to me anymore” and stuff along those lines. And in the process of my conscience questioning me, I probably checked my phone for any new text messages like ten times in the time span of 2 minutes. And when I do get a text message, I slowly inhale and hope that it’s you. If it is you, I debate whether or not what I’m responding with is a legitimate response.You know- not too forward, not too uninterested, and not too friendly, but just right. And once I think I got my wordplay on lock, I close my eyes and press the send button. Sometimes, I even wait a while before I send it so it’d seem like I’m not too clingy. But then again I don’t wanna seem too distant, so, after my experience with this stuff- I guess you can say I’ve pretty much got my timing down. And then I wait. Sometimes, I wait around for too long and I start to get worried and insecure. “What if he really doesn’t like me? What did I do wrong THIS time?!” and the whole cycle re-occurs again and again …. and again."
The bold would be the story of my life...
The bold would be the story of my life...
Tatted up!
Not yet.
But I have made a final decision that yes, I am getting a tattoo, just one.
I've been on and off of the "Tattoo Train" as I call it, for so long.
A few years ago I wanted six tattoos. Not even joking.
After I met Jalen and he told me his views on them I was off of the train.
But I'm back on board.
But I've made up my mind 150% that I'm getting one.
I'm going to get my favorite quote on my hip.
I knew I had to get it when I watched "Mona Lisa Smile" the other night
& that quote was in the final scene of the movie.
"Not all who wander are lost."
After my "Lost in the world" post I feel its very appropriate.
I've been thinking and have come to realize that I'm not lost.
I'm just figuring out where I want to go and I know that whatever path I may choose...
...will be a path to greatness.
But I have made a final decision that yes, I am getting a tattoo, just one.
I've been on and off of the "Tattoo Train" as I call it, for so long.
A few years ago I wanted six tattoos. Not even joking.
After I met Jalen and he told me his views on them I was off of the train.
But I'm back on board.
But I've made up my mind 150% that I'm getting one.
I'm going to get my favorite quote on my hip.
I knew I had to get it when I watched "Mona Lisa Smile" the other night
& that quote was in the final scene of the movie.
"Not all who wander are lost."
After my "Lost in the world" post I feel its very appropriate.
I've been thinking and have come to realize that I'm not lost.
I'm just figuring out where I want to go and I know that whatever path I may choose...
...will be a path to greatness.
Love is a sickness.
I've got a case of love sickness.
My knees shake and I can't breathe a single breath.
Every last toe curls up and my palms get sweaty.
Sometimes I try to speak but when I open my mouth...
...nothing is there but the sound of sweet fluttering.
Those damn butterflies never go away in my tummy.
That heart of mine just won't behave.
thump thump, lub-dub, bum-bump.
Hands jittery. Vision blurry.
Yep, that's what I've got.
If there's a cure,
ooh baby, I don't want it.
My knees shake and I can't breathe a single breath.
Every last toe curls up and my palms get sweaty.
Sometimes I try to speak but when I open my mouth...
...nothing is there but the sound of sweet fluttering.
Those damn butterflies never go away in my tummy.
That heart of mine just won't behave.
thump thump, lub-dub, bum-bump.
Hands jittery. Vision blurry.
Yep, that's what I've got.
If there's a cure,
ooh baby, I don't want it.
Lost in the world.
High school will soon be just another chapter in my life and college will be the beginning of another. Isn't this about the time where I'm supposed to know who I am and what I stand for? Or am I supposed to know who I want to be and what I want to do? Is it both? I'm lost on where I go from here. As these past few months have been winding down, I've learn more about my peers and what represents them and what makes them stand out as an individual. I don't dance, sing, or act. I don't play an instrument. I'm not the genius. I don't do any sports like I used to. I haven't created clubs or been involved with the community like I have in the past. I'm seriously just an average girl and that thought sadden me. When applying for scholarships, they don't want the average girl, they want the captain of the cheerleading squad, that gets straight A's, sings in her church choir and volunteers every weekend at a children's hospital. You get it? That girl isn't me. At this point I don't know what to do or where to start standing above the rest. I keep saying things will change when I go to college, but will they?
I'm tired of being just a number. I know what I stand for but do other people?
I would give anything to help others. I don't like to see people arguing or upset. It makes me sick to see homeless people every single day. It tears me up that there are children in the world who don't eat. These things kill me inside and I want to make it my duty so bad to help everyone that I can but I haven't started anywhere and that hurts worse. I'm an advocate for the Invisible Children; I've donated money but I feel that's not enough. I give to homeless people sometimes but it's not enough. I give can food every year but it's not enough. I don't want it to be a thing where people know I give. That's not why I do it. I do it because it's in my heart to. But at the same time I also feel that these things won't get me anywhere like being a talented singer or athlete will.
I'm lost.
Sex Ed.
...is not all it's cracked up to be.
I've been waiting awhile to get to this part
& it isn't what I expected at all.
Honestly, I knew over half of the things he taught.
Some words that come out of his mouth
were quite awkward at times...
other than that, it's just another lesson.
What did I expect??
I don't know.
Tomorrow we get to the student questions.
This should be interesting.
All Sex Ed makes me want to do is have sex....just saying.
[Just kidding by the way...]
I've been waiting awhile to get to this part
& it isn't what I expected at all.
Honestly, I knew over half of the things he taught.
Some words that come out of his mouth
were quite awkward at times...
other than that, it's just another lesson.
What did I expect??
I don't know.
Tomorrow we get to the student questions.
This should be interesting.
All Sex Ed makes me want to do is have sex....just saying.
[Just kidding by the way...]
8 months.
Honestly, I've thinking about what to write about for our 8th month all day. Nothing good really crossed my mind. I was going to talk about the shoes he got me. The hi top Sperrys that he thinks are hideous but I've gotten so many compliments on but nahh. I was going to add to the "Things I Love about Jalen list." but I figured it would be kind of weird to continue a list from last month and only add one more thing; "The 8th Thing I Love about Jalen." Weeirrd. Therefore I'm just going wing it.
I mean it's not like the 8th month is any better than the rest. It's not like between these mile-markers I don't give updates or anything. I guess doing these little monthiversary helps me to see our progress. I dont know. I guess I'll stop at a year. I don't even know what the heck I'm talking about any more.
Bottom line, I love that mo fo Jalen Dukes! :)
I love him more and more each day...sometimes.
& I'm glad we made it this far!
Dear Tumblr;
I know you're the new hippest, hottest way to blog and Blogspot is so last year (or the last five). But seriously stop taking my Blogger bloggers away from me! :(
Left and right they are announcing that they have moved on from Blogspot to you and have actually deleted their accounts! NO more! FINETO! I really hurt's because not only have I been blogging for a short time, I have come to love these people and you're taking them away from me, but once I find a blog that I really enjoy and start following them I realize that their last post was like a million months ago. This is not cool. I mean, I have a Tumblr myself but I have yet to abandon my beloved Blogspot, nor will I ever. You are really the scum between my toes. You make me vomit.
Love,
Blog post of a mad black woman.
P.S.- Let WordPress know that I'm on to them too. Grrr. >: (
Senior Prom 2k10.
"One there was a princess named Shelby and she went to the ball wearing a beautiful silver gown that made every guy smile and every girl frown with envy."
-My friend Corey. :D
Add me on FACEBOOK!
Search: Shelby Danielle or click below.
How we say 'good-bye'.
This is seriously how it is every time. This comic couldn't have been more accurate on summing up our relationship. THIS IS HOW IT IS...EVERY. SINGLE. TIME! I don't think you understand. Every time.
& it doesn't get any easier.
Senior Skip Day. [4.16.09.]
More pics soon. :)
On today's agenda:
you already know,
PROMMM!!
btw- It's kind of raining right now.
If this keeps up, I just might have a fit.
Actually, I know I will.
Why would it be clear, sunny and beautiful all week
& when this day comes it decides to be gloomy!? :(
In 55 days I will have...
this beauty!
Nooo. Not Rihanna silly.
Nooo. Not Rihanna silly.
(I wish! Baha) :D
The tragus piercing.
You see that itty bitty tiny dot,
right above that gigantic mass of diamonds.
That thing!
I want it! :)
Btw- this is one of my fav picture of her. ;)
Re. Bad things happen.
Bad things happen.
That is life. The earth doesn’t revolve around the day of a human being. We are slaves to change. Things are destroyed when the earth shifts. Accept that you are not in control of the weather, or the collapse of a mine, or an earthquake. Move on, rebuild, and live in the fragile existence we call life.
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Join me.
I've seen listening to the songs on my playlist for the past 3 hours. I smiled. I cried. I felt joy. I felt sadness. I sang along to every word. I sat and just listened to the words. All the while this is going on, I tried to think of something to post. Nothing could take me away. All I could do was feel the music. Eyes closed. Taken away. That's all I've been asking for; to be taken away.
Go listen to music for as long as you can. Don't just hear the words. Listen to the lyrics. Sit there without doing a single thing. Don't worry about anything in the world but what's in your soul. Let the music take you away. Clear your head. Go ahead and cry. Laugh. Sing. It's okay. I promise it is.
And when you're done,take a deep breath and continue on with your life.
I love you.
Listen up world!
I AM IN LOVE!
Just thought I'd let you guys know.
& I'm sure you already knew that.
Thanks for your time. :)
anonymous.
I love your blog. You're a great writer, and surprisingly we have so much in common. I understand how you feel a lot of the time, which is really weird since we don't even know each other lol. I just wanted to tell you to keep expressing yourself :)
Please tell me who you are. PLEASE!
Actually, I take that back. You don't have to.
I'm not exactly sure how I would respond.
Somewhere along the lines of:
"Thank you so much! It's nice to know I'm not the only one. ..in any situation. I will definitely continue to blog. I can't imagine giving it up nor will I confide in what others want from me. Once again, THANKS!"
Something along those lines. ;)
Zora Howard.
Click here for "Bi-Racial Hair".
She was 14 in this video.
Walking.
She's about 17 or 18 here.
She's nothing but the truth.
You can feel her with every word that comes from her lips.
Every movement that she makes.
She is the voice.
She was 14 in this video.
Walking.
She's about 17 or 18 here.
She's nothing but the truth.
You can feel her with every word that comes from her lips.
Every movement that she makes.
She is the voice.
Sometimes I really hate him.
Not because of anything he says or do, that's when I dislike him.
The hatred comes in on how he makes me feel.
I'm lost without him which makes me an idiot.
Usually I want to cry because he simply isn't here with me.
I miss him before he even leaves.
I get worried when he doesn't call or text because he's just at a game.
I can't go a night without hearing "I love you";
and when I do, the feelings unbearable and I panic.
I hate that even at 7 months, we don't tell each other everything.
I hate to use the word hate.
I love him with all of my heart.
And that's the part I hate.
But he is the creator of it.
Whatthefck.?!
I sound like a dumbass.
The hatred comes in on how he makes me feel.
I'm lost without him which makes me an idiot.
Usually I want to cry because he simply isn't here with me.
I miss him before he even leaves.
I get worried when he doesn't call or text because he's just at a game.
I can't go a night without hearing "I love you";
and when I do, the feelings unbearable and I panic.
I hate that even at 7 months, we don't tell each other everything.
I hate to use the word hate.
I love him with all of my heart.
And that's the part I hate.
But he is the creator of it.
Whatthefck.?!
I sound like a dumbass.
fml!
Why did I get married too?, The Last Song, Clash of the Titans in 3D.
All three came out on Friday.
Not only that, but we just now got nachos.
My life has been hella crazy at work.
Little ole' Bell Forge 10 never gets business like we've been getting!
I can't keep up.
Quick story.
This couple orders some popcorn and drinks.
This couple orders some popcorn and drinks.
Their total was $20.45.
They paid with a card.
My finger slipped and pressed $204.55!
I tried to cancel but it didn't work.
I tried to cancel but it didn't work.
My manager wasn't there to fix it.
I had to give them $200 in cash out of the drawer.
I'm so embarrassed. :(
FML!
Goodwill hunting haul. [2]
A new Goodwill opened like 3 minutes from my house!!
So I had to go to the grand opening. Duhh! Yall know me. :) What I really went there for I didn't find and I wasn't there for long sooo here's what I got. I'll probably go again within the next week.
Click here for first haul.
So I had to go to the grand opening. Duhh! Yall know me. :) What I really went there for I didn't find and I wasn't there for long sooo here's what I got. I'll probably go again within the next week.
Click here for first haul.
Shorts and shirt from there.
Cute striped shirt was $4.29. I love the key hole in the back.
UnionBay shirts were $3.99.
I saw the shorts first because I really need some from spring and summer,
UnionBay shirts were $3.99.
I saw the shorts first because I really need some from spring and summer,
when I tried them out I really wasn't feeling them because the wash was funny.
I looked at them and was like "It needs a striped shirt because it's nautical like."
So I found one and I love them both!
So I found one and I love them both!
Blouse and skirt from Goodwill.
Wet Seal blouse was $4.29
Fabulous Forever 21 (xxi) skirt was $3.99.
Fabulous Forever 21 (xxi) skirt was $3.99.
Floral top from Goodwill, Jeans, xxi.
The Forever21 floral top was $4.29.
The Forever21 floral top was $4.29.
Oversized comfy striped tee was $4.29.
I lovve this!
I lovve this!
Pin striped vest (sorry bad quality) $4.29.
Gold and silver belt for like $2 or something.
That was all for that day, I was only there for like an hour.
Give me a few more and I can cause some damage to Goodwill. : D
Oh! and one more thing.
So how bout I went into the dressing room, I turned around at the rack, you know where people don't want what they tried on, and EVERY LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING WAS BLACK!
I was like well dannggg! Who died??!
It was just really strange to me.
Have a good day loves!
btw- I'll have better pics one day when I actually buy a new digital camera.
Have a good day loves!
btw- I'll have better pics one day when I actually buy a new digital camera.
:)
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