When: Christmas Day.2009.
Time: Night.
Place: Waffle House.
Perks: FREE WAFFLE.

"Baby, baby, baby,
from the day I saw you,
I really, really wanted to catch your eye.
There's something special 'bout you.
I must really like you,
'cause not a lot of guys are worth my time.
Oh. Baby, baby, baby,
It's gettin' kinna crazy,
'cause you are takin' over my mind.
And it feels like
OooOoOoOoOooOooOooo...


Baby, baby, baby
I see us on our first date.
You doin' everything that makes me smile.
And when we had our first kiss,
it happened on a Thursday weekday, :]
and, ooh, it set my soul on fire.
Ooh, baby, baby, baby,
I can't wait for the first time.
My imagination's runnin' wild.
It feels like
OooOoOoOoOoooooo.."




MERRY
CHRISTMAS!

I hope everyone has a safe & joyous day! :]




Max's Father:
Max:







Get serious, for once! What are you going to DO with your life?
Why is it always what will I do? Why isn't the issue here who I am?
Uncle Teddy:






Because, Maxwell, what you do defines who you are.
Max:






No, Uncle Teddy. Who you are defines what you do. Right Jude?
Jude:






Well, surely it's not what you do, but the, uh... the way that you do it.

i lied.

I said I was on hiatus but I'm obviously not.




Enjoy:




He gets madd cool points in my book.

"it's scenes like this that reinvigorate my faith in humanity" 
 baha! youtube comment.


& that was Santogold playing. They better get their asses up. What a bunch of lames.

things people do at the movies that pisses me off.

  1. You know damn well there are about a million trashcan’s waiting for you to throw your crap away but instead you leave them in the theater. The trashcan is by the only door you have to leave from!

  2. I know times are hard, but when you look at the prices please don’t make those ugly faces. Not a good look.

  3. If I tell you “Theater 3 to your left” why in the world would you go to your right?? Then have the nerve to get mad at me.

  4. Don’t do this: “How much is a small popcorn, a large drink and butterfingers?” I tell you. “Never mind. How much is a medium popcorn, small drink and two butterfingers?” I tell you. “Ok. I’ll just get gummie bears.”

  5. Don’t touch the cups or bags to let me know what size you want. That’s rude.

  6. Stop sneaking into movies!

  7. Stop having sex in the theaters!

  8. Don’t ask if you can use your Regal coupons at our Carmike theater.

  9. Quit complaining about our icee’s not being included with our combo’s. Get over it.

  10. If I ask you if you would like to try a combo, you look at the list, shake your head and instead ask for a large drink and a large popcorn, I will ring it up ask that. NOT THE LARGE POPCORN & DRINK COMBO. Thanks for giving us more of your money!

  11. “Excuse me. Do you know where the restrooms are??” Noooo. I just work here.

I just got off work and I really had to vent. I’m sure I’m missing many more… *sigh*


skatter brain!

on hiatus.

i need to get myself together.
im really lost and confused
& i need to change that asap.
its so stupid to feel this way,
especially when i dont have to.
looking for a sound mind, body & soul.
i wish to be meek & mild. ♥


goodbye for now.

4 months.





ode to the new year.



hope.


"...if no one else is buying you flowers, buy yourself flowers."

across the universe







Ahh, the beatles.

such a bitter bitch.


...it's not in me anymore to care.






Maybe at a later date but certainly not now.

flyy


" i want to flyy like the angels do, feel the same clouds on myy face, breathe the same air..."

go ahead...

...breathe.

respect it.

i wasn't going to post anything else until after exams but i just had to post this one.


Respect It.



"...i break the rules so i don't care."

dear santa,


    you can fly right over my house this year. all i ever really wanted was love. that's something that can't be wrapped with the prettiest of paper and jumbo bows, bribed with milk and cookies, or even bought in local wal marts.

    is love even apart of the inventory up there in the north pole? now, don't you dare say that your elves make all gifts with love because the actual gift isn't love, now is it? i know you're just doing your job filling all the little kiddies heads up with thoughts of sugar plums and what not but lets be real, they don't need teddy bears and choo choo trains. what they need are things intangible, like love. when they get older they'll stop wanting those delicate little trinkets but they'll always need love. just giving you a heads up buster. ;]

    any who, just wanted to let you know that i have what i need. the boy. and i got him on my own. haha. come to think of it, my love is completely tangible. oh how i love me some jalen dukes. ta ta for now.

sincerely,
head over heels.
It has taken me seven years to realize what exactly was going on--
or rather, it has taken me seven years to admit it.


Depression is no joke.
Where there is love, there is pain.
I'm sure it's normal to feel like this when you've been on this ho-hum of a world where we live our restless lives for seventeen years. *sigh* I suppose it's not entirely a ho-hum life to live. But definitely at seventeen, anywhere but here seems like a good idea. Oh goodness, get me out of this sulky and melancholic mindset. *think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts*

Where's that damn remote?

close.

I was right...

                     ...they'll never understand.

MUMZ THE WERD FOR ME NOW.

RE: naked.




You can't tell me that there is anything more beautiful.


* This photograph isn't to be taken as anything other than art to be admired. Please don't look at this as sexual, vulgar, crude, obscene, ignoble or offensive. Appreciate it.

naked.

When I get out of the shower. I look at myself. Wet. Naked. I admire every part of my body. I notice things I've never noticed before. I turn around and look at the arch of my back. I feel my thighs and my breasts. I stand on my toes and look for muscle definition. It's never there. I trace over my scars and discover new ones. I lift my arms and wiggle them. I look straight in the mirror, naked. I follow along my hips with my hands. Every now and then I'd tilt my head, wondering, thinking.

Honestly, I feel the most beautiful when I'm naked.

There's something about a naked body, my naked body. No clothes. No jewelry. Nothing but my very own skin. It's such a beautiful thing. The curves, the different tones, even the stretch marks. I embrace them all. No clothing in the world can make me feel the way I do when I'm naked. No piece of clothing ever will.

open.

I'm not sure when it happened but it did, and I'm not even sure if it's been any other way. I can't and will not open up. I guess a part of me wants it that way but another part of me is yearning for a listening ear or open arms. The words are there but they refuse to escape.


Possibly because
no one will understand.

the sorries.

     "I woke up to the sound of mamas' voice. Why aren't you sleep in your room, she said noticing I was dead to the world on our tattered couch that used to be cream and black but is now stained and gray.


           Look I'm sorry that I'm so sick of my life. I'm sorry that I have no one to turn to but myself and I can't even depend on it like I want to. I'm so sorry I let myself get walked over and pushed around. I'm sorry I don't have a voice. Can't you see I'm still searching for it? For who I really am? I'm sorry that I punish those I love the most for the ones that hurt me the most.
           I'm sorry he broke my heart. I'm sorry I snuck behind your back. I know I'm not supposed to have a boyfriend but I loved him so much. Or so I thought I did. I'm sorry I let me heart get broken. I failed you. I didn't listen. I'm sorry.
           I'm sorry I made you hate me and the fact that you won't admit it. I'm so so sorry.
           Mama please don't cry.
           I'm sorry for the pain. I don't want it to happen again. But I have pain and sorrows too. I'm sorry I can't make the pain disappear. I'm sorry I can't make the world a better place for either of us. But I'll try.
            I'm sorry your good heart is unappreciated. I see how your spirit drifts away when strangers refuse your smile. I really love you. Don't you believe me? I'm sorry I can't show you that I do. But I don't know how.
           What's love?
           Mama I'm sorry for the heartache and stress. I'm sorry we both can't be happy.
           I'm sorry I made you cry late at night. I'm not worth your tears. I'm sorry I made you have to be strong for the both of us. I was just scared.
           I'm sorry. For everything.
           I know you won't accept this apology so I'm sorry for wasting your time...

     My eyes go black. My head's spinning and begins to throb. I'm trying to hold on but I can't. The thoughts rush right past me. I try to hold on. To grab them but I can't. There's one and another and another. They won't stop. Mommy, make them stop. Make them go away.
     I wake up and see her looking at me. I simply get up and go to my room as a tear for every strand of guilt leave traces of white along my cheeks. "


I wrote this freshman year when I had a lot of things going on. I remember crying and trying to get creative since it was actually a class assignment. I look back now and can't believe I shared this with anyone besides myself. I wrote many more and made a book but it's more like a stupid depressing diary. Mama asked me everyday to every week if she could read it. She pretty much begged me. Now you see why I just couldn't let her. She still to this day hasn't read a page of it....she never will.

P.S. - The only other person I've shared a few stories with was Jalen. 
I'm pretty sure it'll remain that way.


This is the book...

In exactly 6 months from this day, 
not only will I be 18, 
but I'll be a new & happier me.
I, Shelby Danielle Corley, am cutting my hair off!
I'm getting 'The Big Chop' & I'm soo excited.
I would have transitioned for 8 1/2 months
& already my new growth is satisfying.
I have GOT to go natural.
It's killing me inside that I haven't done this sooner.
This is me freeing myself & being happy with who I am.
& it's about damn time.



I'm not asking anyone of their opinions
because honestly I don't care.
I'm doing this for me.


Here's my guiding light:

With relaxed hair (all hers):


Right after The Big Chop (July 29, 2009): 



One month after:





She is absolutely beautiful regardless of the length of her hair . !

Check out her youtube channel that inspired me and helped me along with my transition journey. She's beyond amazing.

I supposed I'll post pics of my hair at a later date, mmk??

beautiful .




Me: 'I feel so beautiful today.'
Jalen: 'U should everyday. Fa real bae'

This is why I love him.

sunday secrets


PostSecret: Confessions on Life, Death and God from Frank Warren on Vimeo.

sleep comes after death.



Lately all I've wanted to do was sleep my life away
& I'm completely okay with that.
To be numb to the world & all those in it.
I don't want to rise to face the challenges of life yet another day.
I'm not running from my problems, simply sleeping them way.






I just hope one day I open my eyes and he's by my side.
A reason to get up & smile.



legalized




HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!!
I love you so much & I don't know what I would have done without you these past five years & I still don't know what I'll do in college. :[ You're more than a friend, pretty much a sister. I hope you realize how much you mean to me girrlll!

To Be Continueed....







P.S.- 100th post. :)


omnia vincit amor.

oh, how lovely;
how lovely it feels to be in love.

RE: catch me . . .

Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in getting up every time we do.  
-Confucius


Don't worry if you don't catch me or if you never even thought about it. This may be the hardest fall I may have to overcome but I will get up and rise. I always do. There are lots of changes going on in my life that I'm not sure how to handle, changes that will happen regardless of the actions or decisions I make and that's possibly the hardest pill to swallow. To walk around with not a care in the world and before you blink everything is in disarray, out of your control. It's hard to accept the fact that your little bit of happiness can be snatched up and have you feeling weaker then ever; And when it happens again you realize that it is possible, to be weaker than before. Then you start to fake the happiness as if you have at all together but in reality you don't have shit together. You're walking around just like everyone else, pretending. That's all that ever goes on nowadays. I have friends that tell me how unhappy they are and I can't return with the same pain because I'm trying to be strong for the two of us. That hurt's even more.

"We take greater pains to persuade others that we are happy than in endeavoring to think so ourselves."
 - Confucius


Have you ever noticed a spider web in the rain. The thin, transparent-like fibers didn't dwindle away with the wearisome rain. To my surprise even in the heaviest of rain the web remained intact. Not only did the web survive but it collected the rain; almost like all the weight was resting on it back. I think back sometimes and I wonder if it is possible for myself to be like that web. Remain strong even after I feel as if I'm going to fall under pressure. And if I do, I'll do as the spiders to. Get up and build a new one.




P.S- If you want to catch me, 
I'll gladly accept your offer 
& I promise to do the same for you. 


catch me . . .

. . . i'm f a l l i n g .

Hello December. (:

I've been waiting for you.

"I heard the bells on Christmas Day
Their old, familiar carols play,
And wild and sweet the words repeat
Of peace on earth, good-will to men!" 

-   Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

"then she cut it all off now she look like Eve..."



"& she dealin' with some issues that you cant believe."
This girl right here, is my hero. ♥

93

When Sunday comes around I can't wait to go to post secrets and read envy how brave these people are. To send your deepest secrets to a complete stranger, which I suppose is easier than telling someone you know and love. From the fear of being ridiculed, shunned or lack of  being understood even a tad bit. It's not easy to tell someone a part of you; to you it means the world, to them, not so much. I sit and read...alone, since I'm always alone. It's the only connection with others' emotion I ever really get these days. I feel for them.


I still believe it's mine.


And I don't think my dad ever will...alive or not.





I lost the post secret that means the most to me & I with I could thank that person who sent it in. It's good to know that I'm not the only one. Maybe it was meant for me not to share.

Janelle Monae.

I want this CD soo bad. It was released in 08, bigg deal. I recently have fallen in love with her. She has 2 other albums;
  • The Audition - released in 2003
  • Metropolis Suite I of IV: The Chase - released in 2007
Rumor is she has a new album coming out in 2010, Metropolis Suites II & III!
Am I excited much?? Hell yeah! :]


And actually I'd be happy with any of her albums.


Learn more about her here.

Words of the Day.


    Vagetarian (n); guys who do not participate in oral sex.
    Pena (n); women who do not participate in oral sex. [think Peta]



    This is what we do at work. ;]


Thank God I can cook. :)

Oh happy day.

I hated that I had to work 11 to 6 today but it turned out more amazing than I thought...seriously.
  • We played Christmas music at the theater. Now that the old manager is gone we decided to break out the old tunes. haha. Yeah I know it's Thanksgiving but that's how you kick off the holidays.

  • We decorated the lobby. A tiny Christmas tree, the green thingys haha, and lights.

  • I saw three people that I haven't seen in such a long time; Junard [pics below] he left me for Morehouse. This kid is amazing. He also worked at the theater. Meacham, middle school teacher who still remembered small facts about me that even I haven't thought about. Morris, he used to work at the theater too. Pretty much like the father I never had.

These are really small things but they made me beyond happy.







And the hubby's on his way to Greenville or somewhere farrr, like 5 hours, for his last game before state. Hopefully they win so they can go to state. I have faith in em. Pray for him and his team! I know they'll do fine. I love you bby & thankful for you!

Blu.



What the game been missin'.
Blu show these fools how it's done.

Hip hop aint dead, it just got old and tired. I love music and all genres, hip hop being my favorite and I've been disappointed lately. People look at me funny when I tell them that I don't like Plies or OJ the Juice Man. Wtf I look like. I'm sorry but that's not hip hop in anyway to me. I consider them rappers and their genre is rap not hip hop. I don't like rap. Yes, I feel there's a difference between rap and hip hop. Hip hop artists are lyricists, there's more to what they're saying, more behind the beat and I don't think anyone these days see that or even care to see. Lyrics are what captures my ears and my heart, not the next catchey hook or phrase. Rappers all have the same topics; sex, money, cars, 'the streets'. They put this whole persona on, I feel like it's all an act just to sell. They're selling lies if you ask me. Possibly there is a rap artist out there that's just speaking what he knows, I on the other hand cannot relate.Why does it take someone to talk about a female in such a degrading and repugnant way. Seriously, why do I care to hear about you spreading her legs?? It takes real talent to come up with something better. Talent. HA! What many are missin'. Please go sit down, Blu gone show you how:




I used to have
Peace, serenity, teaching divinity
Break bread, sipping the blood, eating with enemies
Blind, pearl on my mind thinking we fittin' to be
This, that, and the third
Boy did I learn, tables turn
Billy holiday burned down to play when my nerves drowned my folks away
Swerving in the locomotive, far from my hopes and motives
Back to boasting at shows to get a standing O
From all the fans I know on some of that
Sapphire rapid fire soul stuff I used to hit 'em off with
But now I'm some ol' "pay the toll" for the way I played the role
Cautious when I lace a flow, cause, pose? think I'm painting codes
Patience grown thin, home sick and haven't been home since
Fuck a rapper, I'm an actor in a film called:
"Leave me the fuck alone until I find a real job"
Busting chrome grills off at these soft hearted breakbeats bouncing with 808's and gray ink
Blue heart, red skies, true art died in the heart of my mind
Kept trying to fulfill this, blank scribbled realness, even if it kills this
Poet inside

Used to speak sweet with sympathy
Tease to mimic me, sunshine every line you ever sent to me
Heaven sent, heavenly scent that later crippled me, shit
Simple men don't learn, where was your empathy?
Couldn't see the fork in the road
Kept straight forward, straight towards a humble abode we both hate more
Now that I fumbled and folded that open letter said "dead men walking don't dream"
You taped yours, and you told me I could rent it
Thought it was invented for my viewing pleasure
Human error, the apprentice turned teacher, preacher turned God
Couldn't reach ya, just a façade, the main feature
Modified for blogs, podcast the past, hi-definition, she laughed
Pass the message, now I'm guessing that the jokes on me
Cause I'm the only one threatened
The wretched by the windows sketching
Pencil? the mural of the method, don't sweat it, techniques turning, burning incense
Listening to Billy burn my intent, definitive days that turn my nights to fiction
Friction-less, just a pen trynna pimp this stress, 'cause I couldn't keep a lid on my life
Naïve as the dry leaves on the ground, looking past the tree to the blue sky asking:
Why me?







My first white love.

"Stars, hide your fires. Let not light see my black and deep desires."
-William Shakespeare
Today's the day.

I completely forgot.

RIHANNA'S CD DROPS TOMORROW!! :D

Blazers.



Oh bby;
how i'm in love.

With all blazers actually.

Wild thangs.

This is what happens when best friends are left together.
Shopping, bad little brothers, "milk or poptarts", dream catchers, pasta, pizza rolls, videos, and cupcakes.
All before 7 p.m.




Click on Pic.
You must be logged into facebook.
If it doesn't work, sooorry.
This could have possibly made your day. :]

But from the pic, just imagine what was going on. lol.

3 months.


ily. ♥
At Karissa's housseee! :]
This shall be an amazing 4 dayyyss!
Ta Ta.

It's somebodys birthday! :]


HAPPY 18th BiRTHDAY DORiAN!!!
ily chica. ♥

Meet Kbaby.


SHE'S A BEAST BRUHH.


Gov't name: Karissa.
Relationship: Bestie.
Aspiring: Cake designer/maker, Actress, Vampire.

Follow her blogg:


4 day sleep over. :]

HOTT.

Beyonce & Lady Gaga - Video Phone







Rihanna - Russian Roulette





These videos are HOTT. B and Gaga did they thing. Props to em.
& props ta my girl Rihanna. Love the video cant wait till the album drops. NOV. 23. 2009. IN ONE WEEKKK!

Japanese

シェルビー

My name. (^_^)
"The next time I cry; It will be because I'm happy."
I'm too fck'n emotional for my own good. These tears are destroying me.

Ello Govna.


    Austin Peay Bound!

    I've been wanting to go there since about a year ago. I've already been on the campus, pretty much know my way around, & I went again today with the madre. I got a T-shirt & a hoodie, whichhh I loovvee. I'm wearing it right now. :D

    When I got home from work after the tour,which was about 30 min ago, I see a letter from APSU & I'm like 'What a cowinkydink.' I open it and the first word I read was '
    Congratulations!' That's all I needed to read. I'm officially a GOVNA! People keep telling me to apply to other places. Bump that. I got in my first choice & that's all I need. Cant wait until August of 2010. Ta Ta loves. ♥


apparently....








...i suck at life.

Tall enough.





Absolutely beautiful. This makes me smile. (:

“It's beauty that captures your attention; 
personality which captures your heart.”
Arielle said something that made me lauggghhh. "There's gum under this desk! Who does that?! That's so California Valley Girl!!" ...as she makes the snobby stuck up face and flips hair. uggghhh. you know the one.
I don't know, but I thought it was pretty funny.


I miss J so much.
Honestly I dont think he understand how much I love him
although he says he does. Cant be.
I dont even know to what extent;
to the point I cant put it in words I suppose.
Well maybe he does.

I love my city.





They went too hard on Kanye! bahaa!
Good ol' Nashville. :]
i really feel like i went off on jalen for no reason last night
even though i think its a good reason.
my temper is probably jacked right now.
everything pisses me off.
whtthefckswrong??

i wish i had done sports in hs.
i really miss cheerleading.
maybe i should do softball,
even if i am gonna be on the bench.
or track....

this lil phase im going through really needs to go away.
i hate it and im sure others hate it just as much.
but i cant help it. sadness is all i feel.

blah blah blah.

on another note, i get a new phone tomorrow.
ive been waiting 6 months for this. lol.

finalllyyyy.


off to school.
i feel like doing not a damn thing.

I ran into an old friend.

I was standing on the corner (get your giggles out) and this guy gets out the car and im like "mannnnn! he bet not try to 'spit game'" As he comes closer I realize,

IT'S GAVIN freakin' BAXTER!!

I haven't seen him in just about 6 years.We were really good friends. We've kind kept in touch over myspace but I haven't used that in so long. I'm not even sure if he has a facebook or not-- nope. Just checked. Doesn't matter we exchanged numbers. He still has an amazing personality and just as handsome as ever. Man we have some catching up to do. It was sooo good to see him again. He seriously made my dayy. :)


Good day.




Listen to some Ice Cube as you read about my dayyy.
Im not sure how this really relates to my dayy
but it was the first song i thought of.
[remember to pause the playlist →.]



  • My hair was perfect
  • Since I'm trynna grow my natural hair i have to find a style that accomidates both and I do the roller set thingys and I've gotten so many compliments on it. Exspect Jalen. He thinks I didnt even do my hair. & he thinks my hairs short! Point is, I had a good hair day.


  • New Moon Cup.
  • I know the best friend Karissa is obsessed with the Twilight thingys so I got her a cup from work with that one guys face on it. Not Bella or Ed but the werewolf. Taylor Swifts boyfriend. lol. Idk. But I made her day & that made me happy.


  • Mac Laptop
  • We were supposed top be doing research but instead we take Photobooth pics!! :






     
     
    My favvv white boy Daniel!
    Aka the candle stick in Beauty in the Beast! ilyyy!
    So sexy. :]
     
     
    Bahaha! Be jealous.





  • Free Period in Anatomy
  • I don't think I've laughed so hard in that class which is hard to say since I stay crackin up in there. Thanks to the bestie. :)

    "I see london, I see France--"
    "YOU HAVE A HUGE HOLE IN YOUR PANTS!!"

    gahh damn.


  • Lunnnchhh
  • painted Karissa nails and talked to my fav teacher about creepers at the movies and gay guys that pretend to be gay so they can get sneak peeks at girls hahaha.

    & i went to the crazy ass cafeteria to get a fork. I asked a freshman and 3 turned around with forks. I took the closest one to me and the other 2 were like "mannn..." hahahaha. I loved it. Senior Status! Baha. I suppose I'm lamee. :p


  • Bad newss
    this was the downfall of my day. I found out something I with I never had and now I cant get it out of my head and Its dravin me crazyyy. Anywho...


  • Chinese Storee
  • I pretty much always go to the chinese store after to school to get crap because everything is like megggaaa loww! Today I got Cotton Candy nail polish to add to my collection [hot pink, lime green, tourquouise, dark purple, navy & pearl. i think im missing some]. And I got a purple peace bracelet with matching earrings. I alreay have it in yellow. um...i think thats all. :]


  • Krogering
  • I also always go to Kroger after school. I went to get more nail polish [on sale for $2] but i changed my mind and got more eye shadow [also to add to my collection; gold, lime, navy, taupe, 'lasting lilac' which is the besstt eyeshadow evaa]. This time I got a silver gray color and I love it. Cant wait to wear it tomorrow.

    I stopped by the candy aisle to get sour gummy worms and chocolate covered raisins. an addictive combination.

& I realized how much I love my converses.



Well thats about it loves.

Dang this was pointless--
Oh well. :]


Good Morning Sunshine.

Today will not be like the last.
Today will not be like the last.
Today will not be like the last.
Today will not be like the last.
Today will not be like the last.
Today will not be like the last.
Today will not be like the last.  

Today will be a good day.

Oh Daddyy.


Your little girl's all grown up & you missed it.
I forgive you...I think.

Rihanna gets real raw.

Rihanna tells all.
As you know if you read my blog; I love Rihanna.
I think she's incredibly talented, beautiful, & unique and different.
[not lady gaga different either]

I applaude her for her strength which is even the more to love her. :)




She's also on the cover of Glamour magazine as "Woman of the Year." She deserves it.




 Simply stunning if you ask me.



T-T-T S-S-S U!

Tennessee State University Homecoming Oh.NiNE!
November 1st-7th.

Biggest event of the year for blk people. lol.

Tomorrow parade & gamme!

Cant go to the parade because I gotta work.
but best believe I'll be at the gammeee! :)

click here! click here! click here!




I really do love TSU but I would never go there. haha.

Beauty & the Beast.

BRAVO!

Hume Fogg you never cease to amaze me with your musical plays. They are truley works of fine art. Yall did a damn good job tonight! Shout out to the seniors, Sandi T, sexy ass Jordan W. haha, Daniel C, & the rest. lol. I loved it! 

Nighty Nite loves.

When it hurts so bad.

"When it hurts so bad, 
Why's it feel so good?"

"Too much of love can hurt sometimes. You can love so much and so hard that when the slightest hurdle comes along it feels like the worst pain imaginable. Your eyes get glassy and you choke back the tears. You know, that feeling? Well I get that feeling a lot. Not because I'm sad or feel like my relationship's on the brink but because I love too much and too hard. While it can be unbearable to deal with, I remind myself that this is love and if it wasn't, I wouldn't care as much as I do. Oh baby, it hurts so good."

[haha. ok im so done with these love posts. im just overflowing with emotion right now!]

Bear with me.

I'm at a fragile point right now. One of those sad spell type things. I have friends, family and a boyfriend who loves me yet I still find things to complain about. I hate this feeling.
Like I'm up against
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I just want to feel like I belong or whatever. Grow and develop as a person, a better person.
So please bear with me while I get myself together. kthnx. I knew you'd understand. Ta Ta.


"I'm not realizing who I am; 
I'm realizing who I want to be."


[Sappy blog post.ehh...]

Usher Raymond's.







i had to. i think this is the cutest thing! :)