I wish to feel loved again. I wish I didn't feel so lonely. I wish that wasn't the truth, that I'm lonely. I wish I had a life to live instead of watching other people live theirs. I wish others would be happy. How could I be happy when the ones around me aren't? I wish I wasn't so hard on myself. I wish I knew someone was here for me. I wish someone would hold me at night. That's all I need.
I wish I was stronger than this.
This sounds like what I was telling my bf today..*sigh* I have my moments.
ReplyDeleteI want to start off by saying that I love your hair and the color! I just noticed that you were a follower (I'm retarded at times) so I clicked on you and BAM! I'm here. I went through your blog the other day and didn't comment so I came back. I was like "this girl is different. this isn't the blog I looked at" but you dyed your hair.
ReplyDeleteSomething that we wrote in this post (well everything) stuck out to me. "I wish I had a life to live instead of watching other people live theirs." I know I don't know you, so I don't want you to think that I'm rude by saying this. Never ever ever judge/compare your life to others. I had a period this past year cause I was super depressed and then I started adding other people's lives, mostly bloggers, into the mix. You have the life you have and the experiences you have for a reason. You never know, someone could be very envious of the life you lead.
And your lonely part. I go to school in California. My family lives in Germany. My only friend in college is my boyfriend. Lonely won't go away unless you want it to go away. I don't want you to end up being like how I was, depressed during college. Ew. Not cool.
If you want to talk, you can email me anytime.
tsjw08@gmail.com
I hope you feel much better soon!!
You really took the words out of my mouth.. out of my heart.
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